Just moved to NYC -- still no panic attack. Thanks Boulder.
As much as I enjoy pushing myself to try new things and constantly change -- it has always caused me a lot of anxiety and stress. I know that this is a pretty common feeling for everyone but in advertising (and many other industries) you have to thrive on change or you'll be left behind. My most recent change was moving from Boulder to New York City to join SS+K as an Account Executive. I am incredibly excited for this new opportunity but such a drastic shift in environment and daily routine is enough to stir up emotions for most people. So, from the moment I accepted the offer, I fully anticipated and began bracing myself for the forthcoming panic/anxiety attack that would ensue. I even warned my girlfriend and parents that it was on it's way and I apologized up front for potentially being a bit "off." Interestingly, it hasn't happened yet.
Not while I was telling my friends and family about the decision. Not when I told my closest friends and mentors at my former agency in Boulder. Not while I was packing my entire life up into my Honda Civic to be shipped across the country. Not when I boarded the plane to see Boulder for the last time in a long time. Not when I was driving with my parents to NYC from our home in MD. Not when I arrived in NYC or when I woke up here for the first day of the new beginning. Not while riding the subway alone for the first time.
I'm not saying I'm embracing one of these temporary meltdowns but I think it's safe to say this is an example of how Boulder has changed me forever. I now understand myself in a way I never have before. This can be attributed to a lot of factors like our former in-house monk Greg Burdulis, the overall positive attitudes of the people in Boulder, or the inexplicable connection to nature that takes hold of you upon living at the base of the Flatiron Mountains. I never could have predicted that my life's journey would take me to that small town in Colorado but I couldn't be more appreciative that it did. I'm not sure any other place in the United States could have altered my perspective or consciouness in a more helpful way before arriving in the epicenter of the world -- New York City.
I've already begun to appreciate the little things that I've never before experienced: having unbelievable restaurants within walking distance of your place, meeting cab drivers from all over the world (especially the ones willing to take you to Brooklyn from the city), Prospect Park, free delivery, the city skyline in the evening, the people who have lived here all their lives and are proud of it.
There are a million small challenges ahead that I can't even fathom right now -- I know that. Fortunately, this time around, I'll be better equipped to handle them.

